Umbilical

 
March 2020
 
Across the continent capable of light speed 
my mother’s voice 
finds me at the sink
 
How many times have we laid eyes 
laid hands on each other since I left home
 
One flight for every year a mile for every breath 
my guess is thirty-nine is that good 
or bad for a lifetime
 
There’s a plague on outside
No one believes in touching any more
 
Three hours south my daughter holds a photo 
delivered by echoes 
impossible to hear 
Though no one could have been closer 
 
alone on the table in her paper gown
 
Blizzard in a jar 
storm of cells 
and the tiny head bent as if under their weight
 
My mother asks for news 
I triangulate
 
daughter mother me the distance we have to go
Fields outside wet with green alarm 
 
Earth siphoning off whatever it needs to grow
 
When the time comes 
I won’t slide easily into the universal palm
too many sutures
 
Even though I once believed the dead go on living
Even though I walked tonight 
 
to feel swaddling twilight on my skin
Like an infant fed and soothed
 
Like this woman at her sink 
two fists 
tears feeding the drain’s mouth

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