Self-Portrait as Copyist

Some who earn a living repainting
famous artworks

specialize in stems, some leaves
or buds, others the two-tone vase
in van Gogh’s Sunflowers.

In online photos, they hang
outside a shop in the Chinese town
where they were made, each
a slightly 
different hue, some 
yellower, some orange,
an effect
of the film for printing process
or of slight discolorations
in the photos 
the copyists used,

though van Gogh was also
unsure or couldn’t stop, 
painting four versions,
each colored differently,

then three more copies 
of the last, most famous one.

In my dreams
all the characters are me, 

my waking job apparently
to peer repeatedly 
at the same material
till finally I see. 

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